I fought it for days - keeping silent when I could, drinking herbal throat tea with honey, breathing through my nose - but it was no use.
By Wednesday night, I was silenced.
On Thursday, I had to cancel a class. I started communicating with Gerald by texting.
On Friday, we had to cancel my time in the studio. Gerald told me I was off the team for Sunday's Gathering service.
On Saturday, I listened as Gerald and Monika rehearsed for Sunday.
And today, I spent the afternoon in a glorious bath of self-pity.
I was just so frustrated!!! Here we are, recording vocals for our CDs, and I have no voice!! Our schedule is so tight, and we've already been put behind with some technical stuff, and now, I'm completely useless.
So tonight, I sat in the pew while Gerald led worship for the Gathering.
I was tired, but I knew I needed to worship. I opened my hands, lifted my arms, and sang my heart-song to God. I prayed, and listened, and felt the spirit.
I had chosen the songs for the service last week. How was it that I planned "Be Still and Know"? Did God plant that in my heart because He knew I'd need to hear it tonight?
I can't say I'm happy that I'm still voiceless, but I can say this:
Refreshed by worship, encouraged by friends, loved by my husband, and loved by God -
I feel at peace tonight.